So-Well where the hell have you been?
Its a long sap story. Just.. here is the just of it-
For the last 8 months I have been struggling to stay afloat. I lost my full time job spring, leaving me at a loss on what to do. I was behind in commissions as it was and was unable to ask for help in at sense. So I went on to working menial part time jobs to barely cover my rent and car payments. I started to work at a local pet store, and it was one of the most awful jobs I had ever had. I couldn’t emotionally handle it, as some of the animals were neglected, and a few that died of neglect died in my hands. I then lost my job there because, here is word for word, I was “spending too much time caring for the animals and not selling enough stuff. You don’t deserve a paycheck”. As I mentioned in the past, I have been suffering from major depression and anxiety, and this really was the last straw for me. For a few months I wallowed in self pitty and just shut down. All my personal artwork and commissions began to look lifeless and construed. I felt ashamed for my commissioners, and that threw me into depression even more.
I removed myself from a lot of social websites that I frequent, and made a façade on others to hide what was really wrong. After finally being coached out of this hole I threw myself in I decided to go to get my ass into gear.
In these past months I have created my own registered business, worked myself out of the crippling debt I have been struggling with for the last 5 years and have been attending school in hopes of creating a career for myself.
Long sad, mopey story short – My life finally feels like its going somewhere. Being an adult is very scary, and something I thought I could handle better.
For 2015 I am hoping for a fresh start, something that I feel is really necessary at this point in my life.
Please, I urge anyone who has any questions to please send me a note and I will be happy to reply. To my commission clients I will be contacting you within a few days once I get everything in order.